Stop Saying I'm Busy

When was the last time you said you were busy? Was it in the last hour, within the day, or within the week? I would have to think that most could say they have used that phrase at least once in the last week. I know it's true for me.

We live in a culture that glamorizes the word busy. How many times have you been asked the basic question, "How have you been?" or "What's new?" and you answered by saying you have been just so busy. I know I am one of the first to admit that I have been there and I have said that too many times to count and I honestly didn't think too much of it until recently. While yes, I often argue to the fact that everyone is busy and that's never a real excuse. But I didn't think about it too much or really how much I, along with the rest of society say it.

It really hit me as I listened to a Podcast the other day while running where they talked about our "Busy Culture" and that terrible "B word". The girl…

A Catalog of Thoughts

It has been months since I have touched this corner of the internet. I have had both friends and family remark on the lack of posts, and truthfully I have thought of it on and off. I wanted to write, but so many other things took precedence. I never wanted this blog to be something I had to do, but rather something I did and something I wrote about when the thoughts came and that blogging inspiration struck. It has definitely taken the back burner over the past few months, but as I have thought more about it recently, I am realizing I have so much to write, and so many thoughts that I want to get out. After all, this blog always served as the best way for me to truly organize my thoughts and really allowed me to put pen to paper (...or fingers to keys) with all of the ideas and thoughts running in my brain.

I think that this summer I want to do just that. Really focus on finding time to get back to something I loved, and something that helped me so much. That something being this litt…

You Have Worth

Two thousand seventeen.

Oh my. This year will always be ingrained in my mind for one primary reason. Back in 2012 when I was applying to colleges, I was applying for the class of 2017. I began college in the fall of 2013, and anticipated going to school for four years and graduating, as we are "supposed" to. I quickly found out that summer and that fall that my life was far from typical and many things surrounding me were far from the things that were "supposed to happen". After Alex passed away I re-thought a lot of stuff, transferred schools, switched my major, and hopped on the five year college plan. Slowly I found my way into a really good place and was 100% fine with this five year deal. But having 2017 set in, I can't help but think about the original plans to graduate this year and the hype of "Class of 2017" when I started college back in 2013.

Well here we are just a few days into 2017 and I really want to take advantage of this new year, fr…

Put it Down

I'm going to start this post off by asking you to look around. Where are you right now? What are the people doing? Maybe you're sitting in a coffee shop, in the library, at work, or sitting in a restaurant. Look at those around you and count how many people are sitting on their phones. Texting, scrolling Facebook, snap chatting, or checking their emails. I can almost guarantee that more often than not those people you are observing are sitting on their phones.

We live in a society that is all consumed by our electronic devices. I am 110% guilty of this myself and I am quite certain that a large majority of you reading this are as well. I don't want to admit it, but I have been completely sucked into this generational adoration with technology. The constant feeling of needing to have my phone with me as if it is s a comfort item. The feeling that if we aren't checking social media we are missing out on something, when so often social media only makes us feel more depres…

3 Years + Holidays

Facebook reminded me this morning, that three years ago today, Alex and I took these Christmas card pictures. It's funny how time beats on and everything changes. I can go days without thinking about Alex now and I can walk through life with a lot less sadness. But then something as simple as Facebook can remind you of some of the best memories, and the past comes rushing back in. 
When Alex first passed away, I didn't know if I would ever be able to make it through a day without wanting to talk to her. For weeks, even months I would pick up my phone and start to text her before realizing I couldn't do that any more. For so long I would gather thoughts in my head of things I wanted to tell her and stories I wanted to share. For far too long I went to sleep night after night just praying I would dream about her. She was on my mind all the time, and I never thought I would be able to function the same without her. Well, three years later, and a lot has changed. About two yea…

Feels Like Home

Growing up, my family had a very strong connection to the University of Wisconsin- Madison. My
mom went to school there, along with my grandparents and countless aunts and uncles. My dad grew up in Madison as well, and a handful of relatives still reside right around the city. I started going to Badger games when I was a toddler and we have had season tickets for the football games for as long as I can remember. Visiting Madison was a normal routine for my family, and in a sense it was just another familiar place in my childhood.

I think my sister knew from the time she was in grade school that UW Madison was her dream school. I'm pretty sure…well actually I am positive that was my dream too, until I was about 17 years old, but life has a funny way of working out as we all know. But any who, I'll never forget the day during my sister's senior year of high school when she found out she was accepted. I can recall walking into the house and seeing nearly a dozen badger ball…

So tell me, what is it you plan to do?

Last summer I made a real conscious effort to live with adventure and really get out of my comfort zone. Growing up, Alex was always more adventurous than I was. I liked to play it safe, and I enjoyed my comfort zone. I liked schedules and organized plans. Alex liked to live life miles from her comfort zone, embracing spontaneity each day. So, in one of my efforts to really channel her, I dared to be adventurous. And I must say, I had an incredible summer. I've really made an effort to live each day in honor of Alex. Living each day with intention and a purpose. In a sense this is a follow up to this post from last July. Because one thing I think I try to drill into everyone I talk to, is that this life is so precious. 
So tell me, what is it you're going to do to make the most out of this life? I don't think I truly started living until Alex passed away. Sure, I did some exciting stuff and lived an interesting life for 18 years. But honestly, I don't think I genuinel…